:( You dont know my pain..... You don't know why or how often I cry. People make fun of me in roblox and alot of them actually banned me for no reason.I used to play roblox in my free times and started in 2007 the days i thought it will be good.When i first joined people just made fun of me and i was really stressed and feel so lonely... Then my original got terminated with all the lost's.I then created 7ff in 2014 after when all my alt acc of 2007 got terminated i do not know pretty much and i know how Caroline,The Cults Family,Jewk and the others felt.They might also felt the same way as well.... This is just a little knowing peeps also i do know Smith in my other acc that was terminated.He was actuallu my dear friend.I joined the Smith army what stickmasterluke created and thats how i first know him and talked alot to him as well. I'm not doing this because I'm wanting people to put aside time to feel sorry or anything for me. I'm not craving attention or special treatment I'm not trying to get back at those who tested me badly but sadly I'm doing this for me. Because I'm hurt. Hurt from years of trying my best to hide that, this person in which I am from people who I felt would hate me so others would never experience what I'm feeling now Long ago I had a dream that something or someone had to give in order for me to be free. " In life, some humans must be sacrificed, some freedoms must be surrendered and sometimes that sacrifice is yourself." If only you could feel what I'm feeling right now and after my so constant struggle Im here Im still wondering how How life has pushed me to the edge' pain rocked me back and forth I had the map all along I was tempted off my course So I chose to write a letter and leave it to those who care people who have always liked me those who genuinely care Im writing one letter and leaving copies behind I think I want everyone to understand my struggle in time it was hard and I thought that i knew what to do but i cant get it together i feel Im finally through So Im sitting here with a cups of water crying heavily with a slight smile and my body is in chills I remember I tried to please you and in the process I lost myself I gave everyone everything i had And now I have nothing left I know when they find me there's gonna be so many tears now they will know how I've been feeling for so many years Some of you will never get it but this pain is for real and if I could make it better I would but this hurt is so real This isn't new to me it didn't just cloud me now the only friend I have don't even care see, this didn't start bothering me now I tried I promised I did but my emotions have won this fight my life has own total darkness Im happy I've found my light This isn't about sexuality or where Id rather be or about the wants and the needs the struggle, the success the hard times nevertheless but its about me... I wanted to live for me.... music playing the dedication of Caroline